My life has been one of those rollercoaster rides, with lots of ups and downs and sideways and waiting in line, and being not so sure whether I really wanted to get on this ride in the first place and whose brilliant idea was this anyway???
Lately I feel so much more on top of things, even if I don't get things done all the time. There is such a strong, positive, forwards and upwards motion, that I can't help but squeal with joy about my current life status. I am still not perfect (I don't think I will ever be ^^) but I am feeling way more grounded than I did even half a year ago.
Some people keep throwing things at me, and I just laugh and watch them fall harmlessly to the ground. I redirect energy, both others energy and my own. I take care of myself and my kids and somehow everything else falls into place.
Today I got my new driver's license, with my beautiful new name. I cooked stuffed summer squash. I found my kitchen table (I kind of didn't really believe we even HAD one, figuring it was one of those urban myths). I had my kids clean up our television room which looks awesome now. (Erik came home and went 'Wow mom! Did you guys built a new room onto the house?') Today I received my very first post-divorce money earned. Yes, it was a tiny amount but it is symbolic of rebuilding my life.
Yesterday I spent with close friends in Vermont and had a wonderful time and got all re-energized. Tomorrow I will get many more things done and take new baby steps towards selling this house.
I am climbing up and up and enjoying every step and every view and every moment.
UPDATE 2018: Looking back at this, I smile at my growing self. The divorce is ancient history by now, shaping me into who I am nowadays, in a good way. Yes, it was incredibly hard to choose to become a single mom of seven children, but I have never even questioned that decision. I used the word "baby steps" a lot and that was indeed the best way for me to get through that time.
Now I am happily remarried and still enjoy every day. I climb the monkey bars of multiple sclerosis and travel the world with my soul mate by my side.
Monday, August 10, 2009
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4 comments:
This post made me smile really, really big!
So good to read this :) And I love the pictures too.
So happy to read this upbeat post with so many pieces of good news!
Good for you. :)
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